Well well well....this is the final one huh. CRAAAZY hah I cant believe I will see you guys in a week!!! Why'd you have all the parties BEFORE I got home though. I thought we were going to do them WITH me, hah wellllllllllllllll that's alright I guess.
This week was totally awesome, we found this elect knocking doors, had the final zone leader consejo of the mission Mexico Puebla (because in a month it won't exist... it will be 2 missions, North and South) and I went on some sweet interchanges with Elder Ortiz and it was super fun. It was just a fantastic week. BUT THIS WEEK WILL BE THE BEST. I'm going to make it the best week EVER! And I ate these famous hamburgers that they make here at this place called the Parilla and they were huge...but like Mexican huge so they were a little bit smaller but it was still pretty big and SUPER good and now I eat hamburgers with everything---mmmmhmmmm big surprise huh. My taste buds have basically been burned off by hot and spicy foods for the last 2 years so pretty much I'm an eat-everything-guy now. I made some sick zone shirts too a couple weeks ago and we passed them out today...they are siiiiiiik. I put Nelson Mandela on the back because of our bus-bonding experience together in ADO on the way to Puebla. And Father.... I have been writing in my journal every night....so all the good stuff from the week is in there. OH, and I ate ice cream bars that were avocado flavored and mole flavored. Mole flavored was totally disgusting, obviously, and was spicy...it was sick. They are super famous though in this one area because you won't find them anywhere else in the world. sweet huh.
This week was totally awesome, we found this elect knocking doors, had the final zone leader consejo of the mission Mexico Puebla (because in a month it won't exist... it will be 2 missions, North and South) and I went on some sweet interchanges with Elder Ortiz and it was super fun. It was just a fantastic week. BUT THIS WEEK WILL BE THE BEST. I'm going to make it the best week EVER! And I ate these famous hamburgers that they make here at this place called the Parilla and they were huge...but like Mexican huge so they were a little bit smaller but it was still pretty big and SUPER good and now I eat hamburgers with everything---mmmmhmmmm big surprise huh. My taste buds have basically been burned off by hot and spicy foods for the last 2 years so pretty much I'm an eat-everything-guy now. I made some sick zone shirts too a couple weeks ago and we passed them out today...they are siiiiiiik. I put Nelson Mandela on the back because of our bus-bonding experience together in ADO on the way to Puebla. And Father.... I have been writing in my journal every night....so all the good stuff from the week is in there. OH, and I ate ice cream bars that were avocado flavored and mole flavored. Mole flavored was totally disgusting, obviously, and was spicy...it was sick. They are super famous though in this one area because you won't find them anywhere else in the world. sweet huh.
Well, I thought of something super cool this week. The mission is totally a mini life. Everything that happens, all our experiences, opportunities and challenges as missionaries give us life experience and help us prepare for greater and more important things which we will more than likely encounter in life, whether they be good or bad. Every challenge has its reward. The challenge of a mission reward. The challenge of a mission rewards you with a better understanding of life and its purpose and how, through divine help and similar experiences, we can take on like without a speck of fear and go wherever we want with it taking into accounting the will of the lord obviously. :) the mission teaches the fundamental principles on which we should base our life. marriage, kids, work ethic, religion, faith, and the majority of all aspects of the human life are dealt with, molded, and strengthened while one is in the mission if one fully puts forth all possible effort. The self exertion and application of learned spiritual and temporal concepts, and the development of ones self-sufficiency by the end of ones mission really prepares an elder spiritually and mentally to take on the world and life as it is quickly thrown back at them after 2 fast years. I thought about my mission, and how it is so closely related to our life, the past, present and what it will be like in the future.
We are all born, I was born into the mission. We all start, it's hard and maybe we don't understand what's going on, but our Heavenly Father is conscious of that, and we are given our parents to guide us. A missionary is given his leaders, trainer, or mission president. They both provide constant support for their missionary/child, teaching him how to walk correctly on the path of life/mission. They give correction, which probably could be considered the most important part of the role of a mission president/parent so that the child/missionary doesn't waver to far from the path. The guidance is constant, and sometimes the child may make mistakes and the guide may correct him or it maybe that the guide is aware what was going to happen, but the guide wants us to learn from our own mistakes and learn how to correct them. The mission president expects his elders develop early on their own conscience of what is right and wrong. So does the loving parent who might teach their child NOT to touch the stove and the child then, being disobedient, does. They learn from experience. I'll go back just a little because it would be better to relate the parents to a missionaries first companion, his trainer. The parents ARE the "trainers" on the mission. They are our guides. What does a trainer in the mission do? They take a new elder and for the first 12 weeks of his 104 weeks in the mission life, and they make him into what he can be, and what he probably will be, if, like I said before, he applies the correct principles he is taught. The trainer plays a critical role and teaches the new elder those correct principles and sets and example of how the mission life is to be lead. He puts a pattern of study, work, repent, work, obey, work harder just like the parents teach their children in the first few years, learn to talk (learn to teach) walk (walk in the correct mission path) study, school, church, read, pray etc. With some small variations a trainer basically teaches a new missionary like a parent teaches their young child, but the difference being that this "life" is only two years. But just as life, that missionary gets one shot, one 2 year period of time to "live." And so the training starts. Talk to everyone, be nice to everyone, go to school/study the scriptures, learn to teach. Everything can be related.
When your training years are up, you are "let loose" a little, a bit more freedom you could say---like the teenage years. You are on your own a little, you don't always have your trainer right next to you. You make mistakes, suffer the consequences, repent and come back. It happens with many elders as does with many teenagers. I think there are 3 basic types of teenagers that can be compared to three types of missionaries. Those who through the teenage years keep strong and apply and listen to the guidance of their parents and take the straight road, not wavering too much (because nobody is perfect) but being good kids. Those who make mistakes and suffer the consequences, repent and correct their errors and come back and finish these earlier years well, and those that lose it all their teenage years, don't make the right decisions, are disobedience, fall to the world's influence, and don't return to the straight path that they were shown. They start their early adulthood on a declined slope based upon the loose and uneven foundation that they will undoubtedly regret. I see it in the mission as well. sadly. Some start out good and are ready to take on responsibly and freedom and stay on the path, every day trying to develop more Christlike attributes and strengthening their talents like teaching the gospel. Some start out well, fall, repent, and end well, and then sadly there are some, and I have seen more than a few, that let go of the rod just for a second and loose it all and don't decide to come back. It's the saddest thing.
So after the teenage years in the mission...you're probably like 19 or 20ish in human time, you have a few problems and maybe you have a mid-mish crisis and you think it's the end of the world. GREAT EXAMPLE---bahah a great friend of mine on the mission, had been dating a girl for 5 years, WAS engaged before the mish but last second went on a mission, gets a dear john midway though, she gets married 2 months later, and whaaaaatdoyaknow she pregnant now.. must suck huh. I'm sure it would. It's hard, frustrating, and maybe the language isn't coming along as fast as you would like, but you stick it out and endure to the end, and it all comes out good. (good life principle) Then maybe you get married and have a kid---or you TRAIN. Yes. Best part of life. Haven't done it in real life yet, but I'm almost positive it will be awesome. Just as the missionary teaches his new missionary, you teach your kid what you've learned, what to do and what not to do, ENTERTAIN them, enjoy life with them, and it's just the best of times. I can only imagine how it will be, because when I got to train here in the mission I had the best 3 months of my mission. You really push your personal limits to give them everything and a little more of the best you have so that your child can be even better than you were. You might even have problems with your kid but you work through them. In the end, you really realize that you have learned WAY more than you thought from the whole experience and how much your kid, in my case Elder Ameida, had really helped me be a better and stronger person.
yup. Then you just live life and love it. I love life. Benefit from every experience, have challenges, develop a true desire to cherish every second you have in life and desire to learn more while you are in it. You follow the commandments, and strive to better yourself. Maybe in these moment you also look back and realize and are more aware of what you could have done better as a child, so you strive to serve and help others understand the important of basic principles you wish for them to attain. It's never to late to change. You apply everything to your life/mission. You now know what not to do. You live in the given pattern of life, in the case of a missionary, you live the rules and do what you should. You love the challenges that God puts in front of you, you pray, read, go to church and the temple and spiritually edify yourself and strive to find more peace in the everyday madness you find yourself in. It's the best. I imagine that these times will be the best of times in my life, because they were in my mission. I'll find myself with (oh but this is not in the mission hah) my wonderful gorgeous future wife, maybe with grand kids or maybe on a mission who knows. I'll be just loving what and who surrounds me. President Reeves said, in my interview on Friday...by the way, best interview of my life...that marriage is the most beautiful and wonderful part of life that will bring you more peace and happiness than any other thing possibly could. I don't know if I could really relate that kind of wonderfulness to anything that could happen on the mission because it seems a bit out of mission world, but if I had to maybe make some comparison it would probably be baptizing someone. But not just baptizing them but really taking part in a strangers personal CONVERSION of the Gospel of Jesus Christ that it has been restored. A true conversion I would put it, one that you are certain will never be forgotten and that the person will not fall away from the church but strive to live the gospel and progress spiritually until they have made eternal convents with the lord in his house. That type of experience would probably allow me to experience CLOSE to the amount of joy I will feel when I am married and have my own family. Those are they types of experiences and most powerful miracles I have been able to take part in here in the mission.
Well, life goes on and you keep holding to the rod, set an example for the world (1 Tim 4:12 --great scripture) by the way you live your life. You thank God for your blessings, acquire all possible testimony and knowledge, and you share it with the younger ones in life and on the mission. you do every possible thing you can so that you can leave this life, or the two short year mission, satisfied with your work, repentant, and not scared to face the Lord or life and say that you gave it your all and endured to the end. The mission is a mini life. Its like a preview to the best movie ever...like...the preview to Italian Job.
The mission has been my LIFE for the last two years, and will be for this last most wonderful week. If you want to think what it would be like to leave the mission, you can just pretend you're 80 years old and are going to die in a week. What would you do? What would you want people to know? How would you want them to see you? Think about it, times it by like ten, and there you have it---that's how I feel right now. I have one week left to be that totally dedicated servant and an example of our Lord Jesus Christ. You can't image how it would feel if you have never had the chance to dedicate 2 full years to the God that created you. I'm so incredibly grateful for the blessing and privilege that God has given me to serve under his command and the command of his servants here on this earth and in this mission life. It has prepared me to face earthly life. It has prepared me to feel ready to take on the next step. I feel prepared and anxious...ready to take on what is thrown at me, spiritually and temporally. I have been able to construct a foundation based on pure testimony here and a witness of Gods love or me, his miracles, his power, his prophets, and that the church that he has created and restored for us through a living prophet. I know the gospel that I have taught and lived for the last 2 years, a restored and perfect gospel, is the true and living gospel of Jesus Christ, and contain everything we must know to gain our salvation.
The mission was an entire life smashed into two years. A two year course on lessons that deal with experiences that will come in the future. It has given me experience to confront similar future life problems and has taught me how to depend on the Lord for a solution. I have learn and grown and have learned the importance of obedience. I have learned that all callings int the church are like assighnemts in the mission, and we need to take each one of them seriously. We learn responsibility and how to trust in the lord in every one. I have learned that we must always face consequences for our actions, be they good or bad. I have learned that as we show love towards out Savior through our diligence, miracles are rewarded and shown to us to others, as well as numerous blessings with our obedience and our dedicated service. I have learned rejection of all types, and how from rejection, as funny as it seems, I have learned that you can feel a peace and satisfaction from it, maybe a little sad SOMETIMES, but never discouraged if you really keep your focus on the Lord. Your desire and faith move you to find the elect. If we endure in the work, God will always bless us, and the endurance and diligence in the work is the key to overcoming rejection. I personally believe that rejection and the reaction to rejection are of the most important lessons a missionary learns in his 2 years. You are pretty much FORCED to learn how to overcome discouragement and deep discouraging thoughts out of your head. It sometimes is obviously difficult, but if you learn to overcome it, it changes everything in the mission, and makes it THAT MUCH better.
I've really learned that my Heavenly Father loves me and that he is my biggest support and is always on my side, and that he will never leave us if we are are obedient and always listen to his council. I have leaned to be sensitive to spiritual impressions, go where I am prompted to go and avoid where I am prompted to avoid, and most importantly contact those who I should contact. I have seen many miracles from such promptings. The spiritual sensitivity is something that I always want to have with me in life. I have learned to see people how God sees them. It's a long process that I have yet to finish learning, so I could say I'm still being taught hah but I know I will never master it. It is a goal that is playing strongly in my life right now, at the end of my mission. I have learned that every single chapter and verse in the scriptures is important and can be applied in our own lives to find answers to questions and bring us happiness and most importantly find direction on the path of to eternal life. I have realized the support of a family is next to the support of God and it means everything. God really has blessed me with with the most wonderful family. I love you family. I know that they were specifically chosen to fit ME and I have the best one. All these things that I have learned and mentioned are really such a small part of the entirety of the knowledge I have attained out here on the mission. It's just like 2 years PACKED every day full of new learning experiences and opportunities to grow. It's truly the most treasured experience I have had in my entire life ad something that can not and will not every be forgotten in my life.
I just want to add my testimony. This life is our one shot to show our Heavenly Father that we will put all our faith in him and his son, trust in him, obey his commandments and show him that we are worthy and faithful to him, and really DESERVE to inherit all that he has. If we cannot live the laws he has given us here on this earth, we will not be able to live celestial ones and will not be able to live with our Father and Savior. Our eternal progression will be greatly impeded, and what we could have achieved in our short time on this earth will now take us "myriads of years before (we) can receive the like blessing", mentioned Joseph smith in one of his talks about eternal progression. I've learned a lot about this type of stuff. We CAN progress after this life if we want---and now we dip a little into some legit doctrine--Why would you want to wait "myriads of years" to live with your heavenly father and savior again when you can just show him your obedience and willingness now in this life and return right after? Good question huh...everyone should think about that. I have an example that I just thought up ...I see it like this-- Let's say we can walk 500 miles in this life though a desert to reach God, granted it will obviously be hard, but it will be worth it right? I mean, we can even cut out backpacks and water and all that stuff...it's just walking, it's easy. So compare that, being our earthly life to this---and I'm sure you'll get my point. OK so imagine that you have to walk those same 500 miles to get to God, but this time it's a little different. The first time you could do it walking, this time you have to do it walking too, but in thick mud up to your chest. The progression is slower, you will suffer more, and it takes a lot more self exertion on your part to get to where you COULD HAVE GOTTEN to if you just would have seen the signs and walked while you had the chance. It's obviously a lot more physically and mentally straining, and it makes it worse knowing that you could have just walked those 500 miles normally andeasily gotten to your goal. Yup. So don't be a mud-walker. That would be the worst. So that is how I see our eternal progression after this life, after judgement and all that. That it will take longer, it will be harder, and those who are in that chest deep journey for delayed exaltation will suffer more then they EVER would have if they were to just be obedient and do what was clearly asked of them in their earthly life.
This is why it is important to pray and find out NOW which of all the churches leads you back to the Father because, as the scriptures say--- there is one Lord, one faith, one baptism. ONLY one, not one thousand. There is only one living prophet that has ALL the keys of the earthly kingdom. For those that don't know where this church is, don't base your beliefs off your family, what your friends think, or tradition, ask God. He knows everything. It's HIS doctrine that he taught HIS son. Ask and ye shall receive. Its a promise and when God makes a promise with us, he keeps it. If we don't ask...well...we know we could have asked so we will be held guilty for not asking....and then there's the chest deep mud for ya. lovely.
The earthly test is big, we need to prepare and arm ourselves daily. We need to live the gospel, study it, and develop a way of life based on that of Jesus Christ. We need to implement daily repentance in our lives. We have repentance thanks to the atonement of Jesus Christ. It is our only hope if we plan on living with our Father in heaven again. We need to study this selfless act and apply it to our lives. I feel like I see with clear eyes now the importance of our life, the way we live it, and our purpose. God is wonderful, he loves us so much. the plan he created is a perfect one and his love is clearly shown in every aspect of it. I know God lives and I know that his greatest desire is that all of his children come home to Him and feast upon all of his awaiting blessings and inherit ALL that he has and all that he is. My dad is the greatest example to me of this all giving desire that our father in heaven has and has helped me comprehend how much my heavenly father really loves me. He would give anything for me, and always has my entire life. Constantly sharing everything from aweosme t-shirts and stories to fatherly knowledge. To me, he has always been willing to share it ALL with me. I image the love and desire of our father in heaven is the same. He wants to give us all his knowledge and everything he has and his internal intention is the same as that of my fathers but on a bigger and eternal scale. I know that my dad loves me so much, and that is why it's really hard to even image the love that my heavenly father has for me. It is our goal though here in this life to "know god," So that's what I'm working at, to "know" his love. This is our purpose, like it says in the scripture, and the way to achieve this is to follow the example of his only begotten son, the straight path he showed us, learn the process of revelation, and constantly strive to attain more spiritual knowledge. He showed us the way and suffered from every pore so that the burdens and sins that drag us down in this life could be made light. He suffered on the cross as well and gave his own life so that we could live again. After all that, he still continues to council us and help us through his living prophets. It's a constant support, and he sends us the Holy Ghost to comfort us. After all that he has done for us, and continues to do, we all need to reflect upon and ponder how we are going to thank him. Will we repent of our sins that he has suffered for us? or will we just make him suffer more to not see us use his great sacrifice, and to see us spiritually alienate ourselves in this life and not follow that perfect plan that God has simply drawn out for us and asked us to follow. It is in the Book of Mormon, in the Bible, in the words of the prophets, can be received by personal revelation...its everywhere. We just have to lose our ignorance sometimes and open our eyes and hearts to the things that are plainly set before us.
I testify that if one truly knows and understands the bible, they will know the truth of the Book of Mormon as well. I know that the Book of Mormon is the word of God. I know it was written by ancient American prophets and I know that God has given us this sacred ancient record in these last days to help us prepare ourselves for the second coming so that we can learn of the fullness of the gospel. I know the Book of Mormon was translated by the power of God through his prophet Joseph Smith. I know that prayer is a vital connection between us and our Father in Heaven, and without it, we could be lost. I have a testimony of specific prayers...they work. I know that whatever we ask the Father in faith it will be given unto us if it is a just request. I know that prayers work miracles, and I have seen them. I know that the priesthood power has been restored to the earth in these latter days and by it's divine power the heavens are opened and miracles happen and people are healed, and testimonies are strengthened. I have been healed and seen the miracles of this divine power. I know that the only true and living church on this earth today, with all power and glory of our Savior Jesus Christ and the church which he himself came down to the earth to establish, is RESTORED to this earth. I know that that church is the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, and I know that the name of the church today was a direct revelation directly from Jesus Christ to the prophet Joseph Smith. I know that this church is true and has the full of the everlasting gospel and everything we could possible need for our salvation. I know Thomas S. Monson is our living prophet today. I know that the missions we serve in the church are one of God's greatest blessings to us. It has been the greatest blessing and influence in my entire life. I have loved every moment and it has challenged and molded me into the person I am now. The greatest council I could ever give a young man would be to go on a mission. It is the most exciting adventure you will ever go on and it will edify your person in every way. It will prepare you for life so that you can live life to the fullest extent and be able to see the love of God in your life and find the happiness and peace that only He can bring. You will really be able to enjoy life and LOVE it. I LOVED MY MISSION. It's absolutely crazy it has come to an end...it hasn't hit me yet. Know that I love you all and pray for every single person that gets these emails. Your love, support, and prayers were felt my entire mission. Thank you for everything. The biggest thanks ever to mom and dad, thanks for everything, all the packages, letters, EVERYTHING. You are amazing and were the trainers and most wonderful parents in my life. I love you. I can't wait to be with you guys again in a week.
Well I'm going to go kill it out there this week and have just the most spiritually edifying and most fantastic last week in the service of the Lord. Have a wonderful week. Pray.
Amen.
Elder Bertha.
PS Those blueberries better be in season because I am looking forward to blueberry pancakes and fruit smoothies when I get back. yesssssss. aaaaaand swimming :)